This has been a year in the making.

With each new year comes the obligatory resolutions: eat less, eat healthier, exercise more, go to church regularly, be nicer, love more, spend more time with family, travel…seriously, the list goes on and on.

I don’t typically do resolutions because – let’s be honest – it sets me up for failure.  I never stick to them, and hell half the time I forget what, if any, they were and who wants to feel like they’ve failed within the first 30 days of the year! It’s just a vicious cycle and isn’t conducive to the way I operate – which is just “GO!”

When I thought about doing this a year ago, I was not in a good place. Work had overwhelmed me to the point that I wasn’t really sure what my future looked like. I had worn myself down so much from work and travel that I neglected my health and as a result, had gained a significant amount of weight and had to deal with some other health-related issues. The breaking point occurred at my company’s annual Sales Rally in late 2013 where I found myself tired, sick, and just run down. It was the culmination of it all that I just couldn’t handle – I wasn’t managing anything well. And I knew something had to change.

So I wasn’t giving up or giving in – not by any means. If anything, all the chaos, all the mess, all of the variables around me somehow seemed to collide perfectly together to give me this sense of clarity that allowed me to realize that this is just life. And how we react to and deal with what is in front of us makes us far stronger and well equipped to handle future situations as opposed to running and hiding from them.

In typical true-to-self fashion – I developed a plan.

I enlisted the help of, at the time, a friend of a friend who is a personal trainer in LA. He is now most definitely my friend and helped me through one of the most difficult chapters of my life. I’m forever grateful. While I gained back some of the 20 lbs. I lost  (I’m mumbling it under my breath as if doing so will completely make it okay) I found balance. I found a happy medium I can accept and be okay. And isn’t that what all of us women want? To be able to accept who we are in each of the moments and chapters of our lives? I’ll expound upon this entire process/journey I went on in an entirely separate post.

I clung to my family and faith – the comfort and security they brought was a sense of calm that made me realize it was all going to be okay. Everything happens for a reason – to teach us a lesson or to make us never forget what was learned in the process. I gladly left 2013 in the past and entered 2014 with a force that is still building momentum in my life. And that is a very good feeling.

But it took everything that happened along the way to get me to this point. So that is why this blog – or whatever this is – was not meant to be until now. Because only now can I see through all of the crap, for lack of a better word, and find peace – and the confidence that was born and earned from having to fight my way through to get me to where I can look back and smile – knowing that I made it. I did that.

This is my journey.

– Confessions of a Corporate Mom

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